quitting :D

I wouldn't update this blog anymore for time being (just adding a qualifier).
The penultimate post of mine "piedpipers 2" made me to think a lot.
The otherside's post reflects my thoughts :D on life.

I realise what I want is to put myself under pressure; pressure to perform; I m not happy with the way things are going.

I may or may not comment in your posts.

when I start again,lets start as if nothing happened in the mean time.

Till then I'll continue reading your blogs. you can be damn sure that I will be reading your posts(everyone of you ).
Incase you need me, just send me an oneliner. Next moment I ll be there for you.

Time to be a spartan. The pain of leaving this blog for time being is enormous. But then I quit when I know that I m getting addicted.

I love this blog. Truly,deeply,Madly..

P.s.
1) Nothing cryptic in this blog...atleast thats what I want you people to believe.

2) Im wondering what label I should give to this blog. LOL :))

3) Song im hearing right now: "walking through the rainbow" - 7G rainbow colony. The speciality of the song is its a good "fake".. thats it.

pied pipers - part 2

This guy taught me few things in life.
May be committing to someone ( he was committed to the gal for 12 years before he got married to her), may be managing people ( i never learnt it ..but then i knew how ppl should manage), may be inspiring people, may be getting things done, may be going that extra length for friends, may be by being honest.
I m proud that i was your junior and that too one of your favorite juniors after ronaldo and other members of the clan :).
I m so eager to see his little cute kid. The first kid who will call us Mama or uncle in the entire circle.



and this photo. How can I forget the occasion!. It was his convocation and we were there for his send off. The only thing i remember is that he told us this " dey ..place aagunga da " (dey,get placed)and he cried. It was recession and placements were tough. It was the first time i saw him crying. He had a nice job in hand and he cried for his juniors.... I ll take that sight to my grave. Period



and this is the view from our hostel windows. The gals hostel was just near by and it was considered to be a sacrosanct :P place. So the song which used to play was "april mayele.." and that was the period where I used to bunk classes so that I can sit near the window and wait for my favorite gal to pass (name of the favorite gal will be revealed in mail, if someone wants :D)



and this is the "accused" (just like in police station) photo :)..The accused is in JOKA ( sob sob :(( ). From tamil medium school in a village from tamilnadu to Joka, dude u rock.... and i still remember u telling me that im going to crack jampot the day i took the exam... may our dreams come true.



and this is ronaldo with senthil. Ronaldo's favorite maldini is in the photo pasted on the wall. I can never forget the sight of ronaldo and senthil eating a chicken. Nothing will remain. Not even bones. its a sight and treat to eyes.


and this is the saxon picture performing their last dance in the sacred stage of PSG. The gang which ruled regulars and clashed with the rivals barricaders.. standing in the center of deepak alias gundan. I still miss their "ooru vittu ooru" song. The passion with which we supported them in all functions...Legendary.
This is what im missing rite now..the passion, the innocence, the ability to do things and go that extra mile,the crushes, the love for songs :(. May be im a B-school grad rite now :)
P.s. Thank u sreelu.copied ur style.

kannathil muthamittal

some dialouges which i always liked in this movie (which i saw today with a mid term tomorrow..he he)
..
" we didnt adopt u. You adopted us"
..
" enna kalyanam kattipiya..amudhavakku ammava iruppiya" ( will u marry me and be a mother to amudha ?)
...
" kavala padatha.. kavala patta nee romba azhgha theriyara... (dont look sad..if u look sad u loook more beautiful)
...
" Gk.. intha free advicelam venam"....(gk dont give us free advice)
...
" amma , ore oru thadavai.. ore oru thadavai.. vandhuttu apparam poidunga.. "...
(Ma,come to me once and then leave...)
.....

some questions which can never be answered..

can he ever give a movie like this again.. ? ..i guess no
Simran, nandita das -- who is the best mother ?..no comments.
why wasnt this movie sent to oscars in place of the stupid,lifeless devdas ?....

I should have watched this movie atleast 30 times... still i can watch.

surprising..

.........
I wrote an exam for joining a club related to finance... I was selected.. I thought out of 40 candidates who wrote, i ll be the last.. infact i wanted to give the paper without writing my name over it...
but im in top 20 :D...
so i m forced to work for finance :))).... after a long time, i guess certain fast forward in career....
.........

guardian angel and cellphone

"Angel I need u..."
"what happened dear"
"nothing much.. read my blog"
"got it...sure baby.. u got a call this weekend"
"kewl.. will wait for the call"

Angel called.. My Guardian angel... (Not that u guys are not guardian angels.. but we need specialists rite :)) )

and in a unrelated incident...

I came to know that someone saw a cellphone in a road and didnt take it. The cellphone called me and told me that incident(Pan's labyrinth effect). Hmm... its a costly cellphone :(.

signing off with few midterms in this week as well...

ilamaran

yeah....

Ilamaran is a 16 year old boy. He doesnt know what is right and what is wrong.He is naive. He lives in an utopia. Ilamaran will die when they take me to the grave.
Since Ilamaran is naive and cannot deal with anyone else, Ilamaran will be my private blog....

p.s. Ilamaran-thendral : I got it after trying names like
Ponni
vaagai
vaigai
Neithal
thendral
anbuselvan
Every good Tamil name has been already registered :((.

me against me

second post in three hours.
no comments/mails expected for this post and I m not ready to speak about this to anyone.
This blog was/is my safety valve. I guess I need this today.

I have been fighting against my values. And my values win hands down. Im sad. Im happy. I cry. I laugh. I m proud. I sulk. I m selfish. I m selfless. I crib. I dont crib. I help. Im helpless. Im from PSG. Im from IIT.
I belong to my present college. My present college doesnt belong to me.
Im real. Im life. Im death. Im a shadow.

yeah... But I m a man. Not a sham or pretender.

I repeat once again. I do not want any help in any form. The only help you can do is to ignore this post and speak with me as if nothing happened. I hope to delete this post in few weeks.

Amen.

hmm ..interests

well, since i was asked by me (otherside's other side = me..what bull crap..its adi) to write a post on my interests (i was tagged by him), here it goes...(not in order..so arbit ordering)

1) NP hard problems... generally they are medium sized problems(atleast in SAT). So hard to solve. Does it apply to culture ? If we have a huge population or a small population, are we doomed to perish ? I was generally thinking about this. Y cant i put an exploratory paper on this ?

2) what do u call a field which apply maths to social sciences, links physics with management
computer science and finance... I want to work in such a field..

3) why kerala model works ? I guess almost all managers like macroeconomics...

4) "Counterpoint" in Indian music.. Has any other music director used it other than ilayaraja ?..

5) Make an intelligent movie for middle class unlike maniratnam or karan johar. I want life in my movie and the cast will be
Kamalhasan -- villain
Mohanlal -- comedian
surya or vikram -- Hero
Nandita das / meera jasmine -- heroine

6) why do people think alike ? After I read "culture and psyche", I try to attribute whatever I do to freudism or some shit like that.

7) Dark,thin gals. I want to "explore" them :).

8) How and why does "Times of India" sell ? I guess finding answer to this should be easy.

9) Learn guitar. Atleast once in lifetime, I have to play his Bass-guitar special songs.

10) Listen and appreciate different genres of music.

At this point, I looked again into adi's posts. I saw some entry like "an applied field of unrelated functional domains" which is similar to what i said in point 2 ?

11) find out what is success...? is it a process or state ? y is it driving me crazy ?

12) start a quit club(like fight club). Suddenly you resign, move out of the place, roam for 10 days, come back and search for a job. I guess it will be exciting :)

13) Learn basketball ... Late but still I want to learn it. I love the gracefulness of the game. slam Dunk....

I guess I should go back now and read operation research for the mid term on Friday. Pausing my interests for time being...